Something I’ve had to learn over the course of the last 2 years: The only person you hurt by not giving a task your absolute best, is YOU.
Sure, there are other people around that are going to be effected by the choices you make, that’s always the case. But, you’re the only person that knows about the late-night run to a fast food restaurant. You might make your personal trainer disappointed in you, but YOU are the one that will gain the weight. YOU are the one that won’t see the results you want.
It’s been a hard lesson to learn, that you’re really only hurting yourself by not sticking to the plan, but it’s hard to be perfect! Screw ups are eminent. I discussed last week, it’s ok to take time for yourself.
So, when you want to go to that fast food place, just know that you are the one that is going to have to work harder to get that off.
Accountability is something I’ve struggled with.
When I was losing weight in 2015, I was part of a team. Which means that I had people counting on me to lose weight. So, I did my part. I lost the weight. Because I can’t stand letting other’s down.
Talking with my boss a while back, I realized that I held other people’s opinions in higher regards than I held my own opinion about myself. Because for the longest time, I was willing to let myself down by eating poorly and by not working out the way I should have.
HARD PILL TO SWALLOW.
So I’ve been working on being accountable to myself, and to hold my opinion of myself higher. There’s a learning curve that comes with it, and I think that most people that struggle with anxiety and depression face that learning curve
So far, I have eaten healthy, and cut out unnecessary calories. I’ve gone to the gym, which is a huge deal. I have felt like I’m not worth going to the gym, and that every time I work out, I’m just “faking it.” GUYS. I’m telling you, depression is real and it’s a battle. But, I’m out here working on myself and trying to show people who maybe don’t think they’re worth it, that they are AND that it’s possible.
Like always, I’ll keep you updated on my progress and my thoughts.