Well…Well…Well….Look who’s back. It’s me, Emma. I’m back.
I’ve been putting off writing this post for…ohhh…..a week. Hence why it’s going up Thursday evening (Aka-Resistance got the best of me. Read last week’s post if you don’t understand this reference).
So I’ve been working on a design project of redesigning a nutritional guide that my boss, Louis van Amstel (ballroom dancer extraordinaire), wrote.
Here’s Louis with Kelly Osbourne on Season 9 of Dancing with the Stars??
Let me just say, this man knows what he’s talking about. Also, I feel like it was fate (sorry, not sorry if you don’t believe in that) that I was meant to work on this project this week.
I’m working on the section about “Identifying Emotional Eating” and it could basically be called, “HEY EMMA. READ THIS.”
Louis talks about eating at a fast food restaurant and ordering exactly what he’s craving and then says, “In that moment, I absolutely love the experience. But after I’m done eating, the guilt sets in. It’s so difficult to get out of that downward spiral” (My Dance with Food, van Amstel).
This is what I’ve been focusing on lately.
I’ve realized that I always beat myself up. I am so quick to bully myself and so quick to tear myself down. If I slip up, at any time of the day, I always say that my entire day is wasted, so it doesn’t matter what I do, there’s no turning it around.
I’ve always imagined the little voice in my head as an evil version of Lizzie McGuire’s inner monologue. (See GIF for reference.)
This blog is about honesty, and that’s why I have to say: that voice wins sometimes.
There are sometimes where I listen to that voice and I let that voice overpower my want and desire to better myself.
It wins battles, but the goal is, to not let it win that war.
But, now that I have identified that that little bully voice is not only there, but that the little bully voice is wrong, it’s easier to notice when that is happening, and change that narrative.
Know that messing up is ok, know that you’re never too far down in a hole that you can’t pull yourself out, and know that the little voice in your head is wrong and is just you trying to tear you down.
You CAN control your habits, it’s just a matter of having the right knowledge.
So, my challenge for you is to identify that voice, and recognize that it’s wrong, and you have the power to change it.